DandelionChronicles

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You and Me, Jourdi….you and me <3

You and Me, Jourdi….you and me <3

(via stagnation)

Ugh so I&#8217;m looking at tumblr and realizing how stunning everyone is and how I look like a vagabond right now. I&#8217;m so close to at least having her body, hoping for the fictitious curves and all, but really there are somethings I want: 1. Even skin tone - I am completely and utterly comfortable in my skin but ain&#8217;t nothing then worse then looking like a leper next to anyone. On top of it so many cute backless tops that I used to be able to wear I can&#8217;t any more&#8230;That&#8217;s karmas way of telling me a shouldn&#8217;t have talked about that girl in H.S with the hyper-pigmentation issue. 2.Lose a few pounds - It&#8217;s not about the number it&#8217;s about the look for me. I want there to be know doubt in my mind that my tummy is looking curvy and cute. My body is already awkward, when comparing leg length with my beau, I realized my legs were as long as a 6ft man&#8230; that&#8217;s sad :/ . That means I have the torso of a 5ft tall girl&#8230;Really? 3. Grow my hair out - Sadly, I don&#8217;t have a problem doing this, with all the cutting I&#8217;ve received in the last couple of years I could be swishing back and forth locks down to my ass. Yet sometimes bitches and hoes just can&#8217;t keep there hands out the scissor draw and thus I have been leading life with conflicted locks. I wish I could grow my hair naturally but my impatience and my inability to transition with out looking like I was in war with a lion, leads me to&#8230;well getting it relaxed and then getting in cut! &amp;  4. Get in Invisalign - This is a new goal for me, in a society where most people have gone through the braces phase, I&#8217;m starting to feel like my almost straight teeth are crooked as hell&#8230;they&#8217;re not, but still. These I believe are obtainable prosthetic goals, hopefully in the future I can work on things like being awesome at yoga, playing the guitar, and just being awesome amongst other things I&#8217;m going to go eat nutella. 

Ugh so I’m looking at tumblr and realizing how stunning everyone is and how I look like a vagabond right now. I’m so close to at least having her body, hoping for the fictitious curves and all, but really there are somethings I want:

1. Even skin tone - I am completely and utterly comfortable in my skin but ain’t nothing then worse then looking like a leper next to anyone. On top of it so many cute backless tops that I used to be able to wear I can’t any more…That’s karmas way of telling me a shouldn’t have talked about that girl in H.S with the hyper-pigmentation issue.

2.Lose a few pounds - It’s not about the number it’s about the look for me. I want there to be know doubt in my mind that my tummy is looking curvy and cute. My body is already awkward, when comparing leg length with my beau, I realized my legs were as long as a 6ft man… that’s sad :/ . That means I have the torso of a 5ft tall girl…Really?

3. Grow my hair out - Sadly, I don’t have a problem doing this, with all the cutting I’ve received in the last couple of years I could be swishing back and forth locks down to my ass. Yet sometimes bitches and hoes just can’t keep there hands out the scissor draw and thus I have been leading life with conflicted locks. I wish I could grow my hair naturally but my impatience and my inability to transition with out looking like I was in war with a lion, leads me to…well getting it relaxed and then getting in cut!

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4. Get in Invisalign - This is a new goal for me, in a society where most people have gone through the braces phase, I’m starting to feel like my almost straight teeth are crooked as hell…they’re not, but still.

These I believe are obtainable prosthetic goals, hopefully in the future I can work on things like being awesome at yoga, playing the guitar, and just being awesome amongst other things

I’m going to go eat nutella. 

This will be my fashion goal…

So Close…

Sometimes I lose faith in myself and I’ve realized it’s only in the face of love…or should I say love lost. I question my whole being! I begin to feel that if I was able to reach my “ideal” then I could internally and externally be where I want to be in the eyes of others.

This girl in the picture above is what I want to be. I feel I’m so close to being that girl.

I feel so close.